Vertigo

A lot of my posts are about my kids, so I thought this one would be about me!  In June, I started having really crazy dizzy spells.  It probably took a good month for me to realize it was more than being dehydrated, tired, hot, hungry, PMS or anything else weird.  I was also running so I thought maybe it was because of increasing my mileage in the Georgia heat that caused me to feel so bad.  I stopped running to see if that helped (which was SO hard to do!  I missed it!), and it didn’t.

I still had the spells, so I went to the dr after about six weeks of this and was diagnosed with vertigo.  I was both relieved and super frustrated.  I was thankful it wasn’t anything more serious, but the diagnosing of vertigo has such a range of time frames/degrees.  My doctor said I could have it for a year straight or off and on (for several weeks to months at a time) for the rest of my life.  For being someone who is a planner…how do you deal with not knowing what to expect??

If I was not dizzy and spinning I was “seeing stars” and felt like a veering/pulling to the left or right (like a cars alignment being off) all the time.  I threw up a handful of times and I tripped all the time.  I lost sleep and emotionally hit a depressed place.

Praise the LORD I can start talking in past tense!!  I think I am on week three of having full days and days straight with out ANY spells.  I feel like I have been healed and my two months of vertigo are gone.  Granted it could come back to being more frequent…but for now its not!  Thank you Jesus!

The hardest part of being sick for two months straight is that I felt I was expected to be the same.  The physical aspect was horrible, but I also felt like everyone looked at me and thought I was the same.  I wasn’t.  It was probably two of the hardest if not THE hardest two months of my life.

I feel like I survived because of my husband.  He was/is the most amazing thing.  He constantly asked how I felt, cooked meals, cleaned, researched vertigo, cared for our kiddos, bought me expensive homeopathic drugs, and even let me stay in bed and sleep when I could.

I think what I am walking away the most from this season of my life (and hopefully will be able to hold onto for the next possible wave of vertigo) is this…we do not have control of our lives.  That is a hard realization.  When ever I have felt stressed or over whelmed there are things I can do to change how I feel.  Simplify my schedule and do less.  When it is your health…your actual body that is hurt…you feel weak and really helpless.  I was forced to trust God.  I had no control on what was happening to me.

My prescription didn’t do anything for me but make me tired.  I tried some “exercises”.  I tried switching up my diet…and that is where I started seeing some progress.  So to this day I don’t know if it was my diet change or just that my “phase” was over.

I am feeling so much better!  Maybe on top of learning to lose control and submit to God, he wanted me to start eating better…because I sure do CRAVE my daily salads now!!  I’m back running and feeling really blessed for where I am now.

Thank you to Matt and some family and friends that literally walked through this with me!  I give all thanks and glory to God to be healed as well!