I look at my kids and I know life is flying by. I don’t want to miss it. I want to see life as it is, as it is happening. I want to learn. I want to grow. Can you relate?
We are in an age of being open and showing our lives on social media. It is only a click away to post a picture to Instagram or a status to Facebook and twitter. In a way, we are constantly showing our lives, and it might feel like those quick snip its are our lives.
I know I am guilty to feel if I share something quick on social media-that might be my processing, and it’s time to move on. In reality, lots of our issues need time.
Embroidering is my way of processing life. I can always tell what I am going through and what my current struggles are by the messages I sew. The time spent sewing these hoops rejuvenates my soul, gives peace, helps me slow down, and find perspective. Welcome to my latest journal entry.
Moving is hard stuff. Or rather TRYING to move is hard stuff. Prepping a house, showing a house, and constantly having it ready to show (all while being a homeschool mama and in the house all day, everyday with kids) makes me want to pull my freshly dyed blue hair out. It’s stressful. It’s in me to let chores go, to constantly choose playing, creating, and being outside over housework. When in a situation that I feel like the house has to take priority, I get short, snippy with my kids, get in task mode, and feel incredibly grateful that my husband still loves me. I hate it.
I am constantly having to apologize to my family and praise God for his Amazing Grace!
In spite of all my short comings, I know I am loved. I feel it in the way I see God still moving in our lives as we wait.
It might sound weird, but we might be finding a new norm. It is starting to feel normal to pick up the house before we run errands. It is now like second nature to hang a sweatshirt back up when I take it off. When I craft, I clean up my supplies afterwards. Who am I!?
I am very thankful that in this “in between time” we have life. We have joy. We get to see our family. We have weekly play dates with our foster son. It may feel at times we are sitting in a box, but we aren’t.
My heart is finding peace in the midst of living something I would wish on no one. My prayers are more frequently that Jesus would grant me strength to seek wisdom and persevere than for our house to just sell quickly. The work might not be with our house, but with my own heart. We are still here for a reason.
Some random things I am loving…
reading to my kids
hiking in the woods
jeans and flip-flop weather
teaching my J to read
watching Reagan sing and dance
squirming to Man vs Wild with Caleb
anytime with Matt
Do you find it hard to think and process life?
One way I have felt loved by Jesus is how he has given me words I needed to hear. Our current church has been doing a series called “in the mean time.” If you too find yourself in circumstances that you don’t like, check it out. You wont regret it.
These hoops are literally my heart’s cries poured out. Thank you so much for reading, for journeying with us, and for being a tool used to continually encourage me. If you are interested in any of these hoops, please visit my shop.
**Note: Our Love is Patient shirts are still available for preorder in the shop**